Beyond The Scars by Louise Lyons

Author:Louise Lyons [Lyons, Louise]
Language: eng
Format: epub
Publisher: Wayward Ink Publishing
Published: 2015-08-09T23:00:00+00:00

Chapter Ten

SARAH’S WORDS haunted me for the rest of the weekend, and I began to question myself. What did I have to lose if I said something? The worst that could happen was that Marcus would let me down gently and things would be awkward between us at Jujitsu and at the car show. He’d never be unkind about it—I knew that much about him. He made it obvious how caring he was, but I hadn’t paid enough attention to the other people he trained with to see if he treated them the same way he treated me. He trained with me nine times out of ten anyway. I’d almost made up my mind to just blurt it out to him the next time I saw him, but I thought I’d probably chicken out when it came to it.

On Sunday night I took the Mini to Jujitsu, with the idea of making a quick escape if I managed to pluck up the courage to say something and then went down in flames when he said he wasn’t interested. Sarah commented on how jittery I was before we set off and teased me about being over-excited at the prospect of seeing my hero.

By the time I arrived at the club, I was more nervous than ever. I parked next to Marcus’ Mini and headed inside. Sarah and Jake hadn’t arrived yet, and I changed quickly. There were only two other men in the changing room. Marcus was already dealing with subs and chatting to a potential new member who had arrived with one of the girls. He nodded at me and smiled when I handed him my money. He was busy, and I walked off to do some warming up while I waited for things to get started.

I didn’t have Marcus to myself that night. The new boy, whose name was Jason, was working with us. Marcus explained it would be good for me to try training a novice. He gave instructions and watched as I taught Jason the breakfalls and various blocks. It took my mind off what I’d been thinking about saying, and the two hours flew by. Jason got along well, and I found him pleasant and easy to talk to. He lived on The Grange, one of the rougher parts of town, and he wanted to learn a form of defense in the hopes it would keep him out of trouble. He was chatty and eager to learn.

When he left and the rest of us went to get changed, my heart began to pound and my palms grew damp with nerves. Now I would have the opportunity to speak to Marcus alone for a few minutes, but I wasn’t sure I could go through with it. How awkward and embarrassing would it be at the car show, camping together, if I said something now and he didn’t feel the same? I lost my nerve. Jake and Sarah had gone, and I made my way to my Mini, wiping my hands on my jeans.

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